Deja vu all over again. I was looking back at the last few blogs I wrote – oh so long ago. And from July 2011:
I sat in front of my computer after a long 12+ hour work day, after listening to some insightful questions from my sweet nephew about how many hours I work everyday and how often I work this late, after eating some warmed over canned chili with much too much sharp cheddar cheese, after daydreaming about welcoming Sweetie back home on Saturday after his long work trip away from home, after taking my blood pressure and marveling at the startling increase in numerals from my blood pressure reading last night……….and I sat in front of my computer and switched on my iTunes and asked my music “What do I want to listen to right now?”
And I have to laugh because tonight (March 2012) I was feeling wiped and slightly demotivated after working a 12+ hour workday (which is short these days), eating microwaved pizza that I missed eating with my nephews because I was working too late, wishing fervently that Sweetie was home already from his week-long work trip away, and marking a noticeable increase in my blood pressure from my February reading. Yes, that’s how my evening went tonight. So, I thought “Might as well.” I opened iTunes, turned on shuffle and hit play.
And my music replied:
Does my music know me or what?
Sad and Lonely (Daughter Darling)
Did they tell you I’d be boring?
Do you know where to order the next morning?
There is no guarantee
That when you wake up, you’ll be able to breath
So I’ll throw you moonbeams
Ill make you kick and scream
Oh then baby I’ll make you smile
Then I’ll make you bleed
Sad and lonely
Don’t you look so sad
You know it can’t be that bad
Just consider it to be
Another way you’ll see me
Did you forget your place of ambition?
I’ve seemed to move you from your only position
You’re so afraid of my reality cause it burns your eyes
Makes you sad and lonely